Not my usual cheery post.. I didn't realize how many decisions there are to make when faced with the death of a loved one. I've never lost anyone so close to me, and it's so hard right now to even decide what we're going to do. Where to live, what to live on - I haven't had a job in 13 years - what to get rid of, what to keep.. My parents and children have been a wonderful support, and friends and church members have been so kind and supportive but I can't rely on them forever. Jesse is the bright light in my life right now and I need to be strong for him, but sometimes it is so hard to even think.. I'm not only scared for the future, but I miss Walt so darn much. He truly was my best friend. We had our problems, who doesn't? But we would always work things out. Things were beginning to really come together for us, and we were enjoying planning what we would do in retirement. I'll probably not leave this up for long ~ it sounds really whiny, and I don't mean to be that way. I just wished I'd been more loving and giving, thanked him more for all he did for us, and not been picky about the little things that never mattered in the long run. I miss his smile, his laughter, and even his crazy sense of humor, how much he adored our grandkids, and how open and giving he was to others.
I love you babe ~ forever.
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I love you Mom. I miss Dad so much too. Even though we disagreed a lot he was truly the best dad around. He was so supportive of me. Being there to watch me march at football games in high school, going to my concerts, and most of all helping me out with Jesse. I am so thankful that he got to spend his last week on earth with both of my children. I wished I could have hugged him longer. Dad used to call me every Sunday I think those days are going to be the hardest for me for awhile. I love you Mom.
Denise...Tom said that you need to contact Social Security to see if there are any Survivor's Benefits available to you and Jesse. Go to the office in Prescott and see if anyone can give you the information that you need and hopefully there may be some financial help for you.
Thinking of you,
Janet
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